feeling guilty, and filled with regrets..

i've been thinking alot lately, and i feel guilty, for hurting friends and family even with the slightest insult. and especially to my closed ones, i feel guilty for hurting each and everyone of you. now i'm filled with regrets.. i'd like to apologise to all that i've hurt these past 16 years. but i can't help myself, from this day on i'll try to be more careful and not hurt anyone anymore. i don't hate anybody, but i just dislike certain people.. can't be helped right? i REALLY REALLY am sorry. and i mean it from the bottom of my heart.
today, i feel so wasted. lol. after going into my room at 7 in the morning. i slept right on till 12. then we chatted, the 3 of us. and we went for lunch and i hung out at hui and ting's place till 11 at nite. =.= come back home, change into my p'jays and then started continuing my sejarah. now i'm left half of the 1/4 i left out. i shall cover it up tommorow. that guiltiness and regrets in me is too distracting. i just had to say something. in this sanctuary of mine.
i can't blog in the middle of the night anymore. not until my exams are over. and when they are, i'll definitely come back and pour everything bout my daily life and my feelings inside here. owh, but i'll definitely come back in here to write bout my birthday party, whether it turned out good or bad or just the way i wanted it! (: kay, thinking of my birthday makes me happier.
gawd, i'm getting so forgetful i'm forgetting ppl's birthday, what i said a few months ago, and what happened a few months ago. i think this blog is so gonna help me with my memory loss a few months later. (:
nitey nite !
*i miss all my cousins/girlfriends, my little dragon, shen shen, cher cher and i miss horng shiann..*