From The Inside: Enjoying life?

Bah.. life stinks.. especially when you have to grow up.. it's funny ain't it? when we're young we tend to be impatient with life and can't wait to be a grown up and work, wear make up and heels.. but when we start growing older we reminisce about our childhood and wish we could stay as a child and not grow old having to learn add maths and planning your future and blah blah blah.. and plus.. when we're young we can be as a naive as we want but as we grow older we'll have to even think twice before telling someone that what they're wearing is just simply unsightly because we might hurt that certain someone's feelings.. urh.... that was just an example anyways.. they're so many more complicating things.. and what's worse is when we have to think of our careers and what if what you studied just isn't right for you? what will you do? take a u-turn and make a left instead of your initial decision which was to turn right? sigh.. we can't even say "i don't friend you anymore" because that just makes you a childish person who gives a rather bad impression to people especially when you're ALL GROWN UP.. *slumps*
anyways.. life goes on hmm? i feel so wasted so useless so confused once again.. it's like i know where i want to go.. but there's so many questions.. especially am i going to end up what i want to be.. well life is unpredictable.. i know.. and anyways.. if we get to predict life, there wouldn't be any suprises in life anymore right?
so many questions unanswered are in the back of my mind and the only way i can get the answers is mostly by waiting and to be determined on the decisions i make. unfortunately.. i still am undecisive and of course.. there are so many ways to go i'm not even sure where should i start. bah.. enough of these silly thoughts..
anyways.. there was something very funny i saw today that i'd like to share with you guys.. it was a pity i didn't have my phone with me to snap a picture of it.. When i was helping my mum pick my youngest brother up from school, i saw something very amusing... after waiting for a while, the bell rang and the kids started coming out of class and lining up getting ready to go home and satisfy their famished state. as they satrted piling up in one straight line, the only thing that could catch my eyes was PINK "lazybags"! you know... those bags with rollers for little kids so that they can lessen their burden carrying heavy books and trying to lessen the chances of getting osteoporosis? yeah.. that bag.. it's like 90% of the girls there were using pink "lazybags" and suprisingly.. most of them are of different patterns! there were the Powerpuff Girls.. there were Hello Kitty.. there were even Minnie Mouse.. O.o kids these days are pampered aren't they?
yes i know i sounded like a jakun.. but hey you don't get to see this unless you have an annoying younger brother or sister don't you.. unless you like to stalk little girls and boys lah.. so stop laughing at me lah kay? school seems to be less interesting as days passes by.. especially when you have to face some certain people you feel uncomfortable with and can't say anything to tell him/her off... so much for "you must be more mature already.. 17 years old already you know?" screw that lah.. come on.. 17 years olds don't offend people in such a harsh way.. i shall not say no more..
Have been very emo lately but i have my jay chou to help me past my time. so i guess i'm still doing fine. so now.. i think i shall just pay more attention to teachers in school and do my homework and alot of self-study to catch up with these smart-asses in school.. I SHALL BE KIASU!!........ =.='
hey.. at least it helps me past my time right?