A New Beginning?

To erase and to start over,
how can that possibly be done in the real world?
As i clicked the "format" button showing on the screen i knew it was gone,
the scenes of the past, the memories of the past, gifts of the past, work done in the past.
all g-o-n-e.

Surprisingly it didn't feel as bad as i thought it would.
Because after that dreadful relapse of the past and a harsh reality check at a certain lonely night,
i've noticed that, the past wasn't something i'd want to linger on to anymore.
it's suffocating me,
i feel a certain weight surpressing my chests when i lay down the bed trying to sleep.
tossing and turning on the bed didn't work, it never will.
sitting down alone in a crowd with so much love in the air was just good enough to drive me to the verge of breaking down.

i never liked being alone, and i highly doubt that anyone does,
yet why do i feel that certain emptiness over and over again when there's so many heartbeats around me?
i kind of forgotten about it until reality checked in all of a sudden.
it was scary, and depressing, i might add.

So, here goes,
pictures gone
music gone
work gone
love gone
memories gone
the dreadful past,
g-o-n-e....

and i suppose this is where we start a new beginning?

A new life
in a new place,
with new friends,
and new perspective in life.

I need you back the way you were before,
not the new you who thought it's best for you to be the way you are presently,
I do not wish to change you, or anything that happened,
but I just hoped that things were they way they used to be before

An early Merry Christmas To All.
And cheers to a new life.

I'm quitting for good,

ready to leave the worst of the memories behind,

and with a new determination,

and a slight fear,

i bring myself out of that little circle i've confined myself in for the past few years.