I Can Never Be Happier...

This will be a decent post... i hope. :)

08/02/08 was our one month

time passed so fast, even faster than the way my birthday passed.

i cannot describe how happy i feel being with my retarded boyfriend. i've put him into so much shit and yet we came through, because being the *ahem* gentleman he is, willing to sacrifice his time with friends, his free time to watch family guy or playing his *ahem* mistress (guitar) and of course his time to haha.. jack off. XD

i know.. that last bit was very unnecesarry. don't blame me, i just watched american pie - beta house. too many boobs for one and a half hours i might say.

been packing.

i think i'm bringing too much clothes. BUT I LOVE MY HOODIES. so don't care :) just bring only.

still got lots more things to buy.

AND I TERRIBLY MISS MY RETARDED BOYFRIEND!

so busy helping his grandmother out, no time for hanyi anymore. :(

Faiz and Kai Zhi came over today to erm.. "collect ang pow" XD

fooled around and shit.

I'M SORRY I WASTED YOUR TIME :)

valentine's day is coming and it'll be the first valentine's that i get to celebrate with someone who actually is mine :)

Just so anyone who reads this blog wants to know, i'm leaving on the 14th MORNING. my flight is at 9 30 in the morning. GG la.
I'm not going to sleep man. IM SAVING EVERY LAST BIT OF ENERGY FOR MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS.

i've got a few things that i need to say to certain important people in my life that i have not been in touch lately.

dear Yew Fai,
in case you're reading my blog. I heard that it kinda sucks over there from jay. Don't WORRY! I'll be going there soon to share your misery :) and i'll TRY to come visit okay? Then maybe i can have some decent family dinner there. *hint hint* WE MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY XD

and dear Lilian,
i know it's kinda hard adapting to a new surrounding, but you gotta try be like a sponge, ABSORB everything you can over there, but filter them too kay? don't absorb all the dirts :) you know what i mean right? live life the fullest. there are more thrills in life that are coming your way, look everything positively. cannot help being optimistic, my boyfriend's fault. blame him :)

and dear comb-bye-nations,
i'm sorry we had a tough time at the end of year 2007. i just needed some time off to cool myself down. we had fun times together in school and i don't think there'll be another group as special anymore in the future. we'll have another gathering when we are all back here k? :)

dear un-d-fined bandmates,
like i said before, you guys are the best thing that ever happened to me. you gave me courage to sing my heart out like a retarded asshole in front of 50 people. and the best part was the 44 hour notice gig thanks to eu gene. that was like. faiz would be speechless by now. and so am i. cannot find the words to describe how it was. but. you know what i mean la. :) i totally love you guys la. thanks to you people i'm picking up guitar and i have a wonderful teacher. haha..

dear jielin and nut-ah-shah,
you girls made me feel young again last year. it was a wonderful time hanging out with you girls. all the juicy gossips and endless laughter. i'm sorry we haven't kept in touch for such a long time. >.< been busy spending most of my time with the boyfriend. so yah. i'll come over to nut-ah-shah's place on the 11th hopefully. to bid my last goodbye and to wish that silly girl a FREAKING HAPPY BIRTHDAY :)

dear jia yi, pei wen and justina,
i know you people will read this someday so i'll just jot it down here. life in keledang was miserable until you guys took the guts to approach hanyi the crazy girl. i remember the moments we spent together. may not be much, but i remember, thanks for the wonderful times in class. shit. this sounds like a will or something like that. i'm not going to die. not just yet. :) there are still many things in life that i wanna see. and many more miracles i'm awaiting :)

dear nick kor kor and nina,
you two freaking gay asses better come back decent from KOLEJ TUNKU JAFAAR =.= reminds me of the jafaar in aladdin. is that how you spell jafaar anyways? -.- okay. nina, take care there in college and may your love life be as wonderful as mine. we'll prove to people that long distance might just work. :) study hard so i can see the engineer you wanna be :) i'm glad we had gone through what he had. and of course the many fights we had too :) priceless. and nicky! you take care too. stop letting her take advantage, i know it's hard but you gotta stand up for yourself kay? you'll meet the right girl one day, or maybe you already had. i wouldn't know. but i really treasure our 8 years of friendship. the ups and downs we've gone through, the fights and everything. also priceless.. i miss you guys. and i definitely will miss someone to fight with when i go there :)

okay.
i think i said what i have to say.

this is like the first decent post since ManateesKnowsWhen. =.=

Brandon gave me an insight to God in a different way now,

so that explains the Manatees instead of using you know G*d :)

thou shall not use thy lord's name in vain.

hey i remember some of the ten commandments even though i don't go to church and am not a Christian kay? :)

Life is funny the way it works.

I appreciate my family even more now,

and also the ones that are closest to me right now.

thank you for spending a little time in your entire life for me. because your little time had just build memories that pictures or words cannot help bring them back :)

Dear Brandon,
You changed my thoughts to a whole different level. From a person who's been a pessimist most of the time, you took the patience to wait for my optimism to emerge. you spent almost every moment of your current life for me, being with me. i'm really used to having you in my life right now i would not give up on us. not just yet. and not anytime soon :) our moments we have together, our memories we have are all in my mind. always. Having you in my life right now, makes life worth living already. haha.. thinking of you has already put a smile on my face. i can't wait to see you sunday? or maybe wednesday :) our own valentine's day on the 13th. heh. :) love will keep us alive b! XOXO

I'M SORRY I DISGUSTED YOU GUYS WITH THE PUBLIC DISPLAY OF AFFECTION.

SUE ME. I'M IN LOVE :)

singing off.


sorry, no confusing riddles today. lol