Drama

He said he loved children, could think of nothing better than having a son or something, said we'd have to be careful - I mean, we both understood the situation - but I promised him I wouldn't tell anybody who the father was, no matter if my dad got really shitty about it - and he did, believe me - I said I'd keep our secret.
When I found out that he'd left his position at school - this was by a fluke, anyway - I was at the general office during the summer, bringing them a vaccination report, and the lady there, the secretary, said 'Oh I heard about your Arts and Sciences teacher - we're sure sorry to lose him, aren't we?" I didn't hear much else really, but I didn't ask for an address or anything, I didn't, because I was standing there, in that office suddenly standing there, fourteen years old with a baby in me, and it was like the heavens had opened above me, at that very second, and all I could hear was the universe - the howl og the cosmos...and you know what? Its was laughing. It was. All its attention was suddenly turned and it was laughing, laughing down at me...

'Medea Redux' by Neil Labute (1999)

When I chosen this for my drama monologue it was because it all seemed so familiar.
And I was led to dwell in the past once again with self pity.
But now,
I see someone of a younger age,
having to go through pain more than me.
both physically and mentally more.

Is this a sign?
that i should stop wallowing in self pity?
i don't know.
All i know is I want her to wake up and start calling me bao bei again.
Everything seems so dull without her 24/7 happiness.
Will you still be the same again?
I don't know.
But the you that i knew,
will always be on my mind, and in my heart.
And when I look back to what happened now in the future,
I will know that I'm not the only fighter,
there're stronger fighters around me.
And that WILL be you.
Because,
i know you ARE going to fight for yourself and your loved ones.
And because,
I have faith in your strength.
All circumstances has been of your advantage,
use it bao bei,
don't give up on what you were blessed with,
your family, your friends, your candies..
It's all you now bao bei,
I don't know what to do anymore..
To go on with life doesn't seem right,
to not go on,
doesn't seem right either.
Please keep fighting,
for your sake,
and for mine.

I<3you.