Mistakes, Misled, Missed. MESS.

I have made so many wrong doings,
I cannot help but feel that I am like the villain in every superhero movie.
I apologise deeply from the bottom of my heart,
for I made us not as close as we were,
because of the way I was,
for there's a gap between us,
because of all the things i said or done that hurt you.

But,
honestly,
i personally think
that what happened was inevitable.
We move on in our lives.
and,
if i continue tiring myself emotionally
because I want us to be what we were before shit happened,
it will only get worse as time goes on.

I've been thinking about the great times we had before.
Although we still do see each other every once in a while,
it still didn't feel like it was the same anymore.
If only,
I could get to know you better,
for who you are now,
rather than before.

Unfortunately,
inevitable simply meant that it will never be the same again.

Awkward is the word.
Every time we try to talk to each other now.

If only I could turn back time,
and try to make things better,
but i believe that those mistakes had to done,
for i grew,
and i hope you did or you will too.

Those who know,
knows,
Those who don't know,
wouldn't know,
Might not be what you think it is,
don't jump into conclusions,
or don't remind me by asking me about this either.