How Do You Not Doubt Yourself?

I really really wish I could turn back time, and stayed at where I was before the mess that I'm in now.
I don't know where will I go after this year.
I don't know where I WANT to go after this year.
I don't know whether I am really coping with work.
I don't know why I still persevere,

I doubt myself that I can actually make it through,
I don't want to know what the consequences I'm going to face.
I don't want to continue being in such a shitty situation.
I want to turn back time,
and stay in high school.

I really hate this whole "trying to be independent thing"
This is bull shit.

I'm sick.
turning delirious,
and want to fall into the embrace of my mum.
I feel like a kid.
I want to be a kid.
and I want to have to STOP thinking about decisions to make all the time.
At least just for a week.
One week.
Stop time and let me clear my mind.
Just for one week please...

Where's the pat on the shoulder when I needed it,
Where's the embrace of a mother when I needed it,
I wish I weren't that far away from home.
shit.
this sucks.

Getting Into Melbourne Uni.
hmm...