Roller Coaster

My mood,
is like the roller coaster.

When I'm upset,
I get really really upset,
and I always can't seem to find a good enough reason,
to why I get upset.

When I'm happy,
I get really really happy,
and I again,
can't seem to understand where that sort of happiness is coming from.

I feel like I'm being controlled by some little minion up right in my brain,
or my heart.

I'm a robot.

A robot to something superior and microscopic,
you and I,
both,
would never know of its existent.

Help?

On a TOTALLY random note,
my brother made me feel better about myself after reading what he has to say about skinny models,
best part was,
"Remember, don't let people tell you what you should be, and definitely don't let the FASHION INDUSTRY influence your life. HAHAHA! What the hell do they know? You are fine just the way you are, unless you weigh more than 200 pounds. In which case you are not fine. Put down that tub of ice-cream. You might spill some on your computer."

and just to make him feel disgusted after reading this,
I LOVE MY BROTHER,
in many ways,
and if there's ever one kind of love in life that I would not want to perish,
would be the love my family has for me,
and the love I would give to them.
Brother, I'm still waiting for the day you tell me you miss me and love me.
BECAUSE I CAN SO FUCKING SEE THROUGH YOUR BARE NAKED SOUL. :D