IT'S NOT OKAY

Why does everyone, including my parents,
take my dreams so lightly?
IT'S NOT OKAY.

it's not okay,
just because it's a dream,
and it "will not happen"

it's not okay,
just because I didn't dream about my family leaving me alone,
but just my friends,
and it "will not happen"

IT'S NOT OKAY,
because if it was,
I wouldn't tell any of you how upset I feel,
when I have these dreams,
how it disturbs me when I sleep,
how it totally affects my mood when I wake up from bed.

It's not freaking okay,
when I try to tell friends or family,
how upset I feel when I get these dreams,
and I get brushed off,
because it was taken lightly,
just because they are dreams,
means they are not real,
means I SHOULD NOT BE AFFECTED?

it's not okay,
when I had one dream about being left alone,
what more to have 3 in a row?
With different people in my life,
either not befriending me anymore,
or leaving me alone in a caricatural way?

Do I talk so blandly and emotionless,
that no one can tell that I'm actually hurting behind what I say?
I'm sorry that I never talked about what I really dream of,
but so what?
Do you really have to know what I dream of,
to be compared to yours,
to see the severity of its consequences?
Are my words here doing any better to illustrate that ache?
Can I transfer this pain to any of you,
from any medium,
be it speech or words?
Please?

Can you feel that IT'S NOT OKAY?

IT'S NOT FREAKING OKAY.