So I Had A Dream Again..

And this time it was just like the ones that I had in Melbourne,
disturbing.
I dreamed that the people I was close to,
were not exactly able to accept me for the bitch that I am,
falling in and out ever so often.

Lyddie Widdie, my precious Lyddie Widdie,
was scolding me,
telling me how much of a bitch i was,
and what i did was disgusting, and a disgrace.

It was awful,
then the rest scolded me the same.
And then I turned to him,
asked him,
was I really that bad of a person,
would you still love me?

He replied,
that yes, I was a bitch,
what I did was disgusting,
and probably something a person that has no heart would do,
and then, he turned away,
with the rest of my Palmie friends,
and walked away.

And they never turned back.
They never did.

These dreams seem to real.
I cannot bear to go to sleep again.
I hope tonight it gets better.
I really do.