Stupid Concept

Where the hell does trust come from?
How the heck do you earn someone's trust?
Do you have to do it with time?
What if the only thing that you can't afford is time?

I have a stupid concept.
Where the world should continue trusting until they cannot bring themselves to trust anymore.
your trust might be betrayed in the past,
but without a doubt, everyone, including yourself has done that.

But if the world stops trusting,
it might lead to not knowing what honesty means anymore.

I hate the situation we're all in right now,
the people that I thought I mattered to,
don't seem to need me anymore.
The people that I thought matters to me,
don't trust enough to know that I care,
that I, from the bottom of my heart,
wants to be of help, to support, to care.

My heart is now STILL recuperating,
from a blessing in disguise 5 years ago.
It is now enough to help me love others to love myself.
I can only do that through people.

Please.
The people who I care, and care for me.
Let me love you,
so that I can learn to love myself.

I feel as though what we have now is so fragile,
that a single world might shatter it,
hold it too tight it'll crush,
hold it too light it'll drift apart.

Just when you thought a wonderful friendship is established,
ready to move on the stage,
where you're going to be there for the friend rain or shine,
SINCERELY,
and not out of obligation,
it just isn't so.

We all say life's unfair, life sucks.
But when you look beneath the surface,
beneath all the excuses, the lies we give to ourselves, the facades we put on when we look into our reflection,
you will all realise,
what we get in life, all started from the decisions that we have made.

Stupid concept.
stupid but I'm going to continue doing it anyway.

I might get hurt easily,
but I don't get hurt long.
I'm the best punchbag laid out in front of you ready for your blows (that i definitely can take),
and you leave me to collect dust.

Thank you very much, friend.

Friend.

What's your definition for the word friend anyways?


"No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, the ones I love will always be the ones who pay.."